day 48
• felt really miserable today but felt so much better after jogging
• I think I'm pretty much going to speedrun the entire mcu movies at this point
• did not manage to sleep on time... but I will tonight. I'm going to try stop ruminating about productivity and just instead fix sleep, if that's the only thing I'll do this vacation. Goals for the next 5 days(wdym only 5 days left??!): wake up on time, no phone before bed(i need to read the golden egg anyways so good time to start), and go outside.
• emo about the end of my break...⌛
• oh also I learnt how to prove 1+1=2 today
Today:
• go outside:tw_white_check_mark:
• wake up on time❌
• no phone before bed❌
day 46
• did my first codeforces competition and got 2 problems right
• sent in my first ai program
• cooked spaghetti for dinner, except we ran out of spaghetti... and onion... and garlic...
• I really need to start focusing for tu delft test because i am NOT prepared for that stuff:absolutely-cooked:
• yay vacay tmr
day 47
• not feeling very well. maybe my bad sleeping habits contributed... watched madame web until 2 and then slept until 12, having my sleep interrupted by cooing pigeons 3 times
• productivity 0/5. literally did nothing. watched morbius and chatted with my niece
• I NEED to rein in my screen time & fix sleep
day 45
• watched venom, watching venom 2(why is venom cute in like a cat wanting to destroy the world but restricted to its small and harmless body cute)
• had an interview
• slept at 2
• just not productive. 1/5
day 44
• they actually tried to teach us uni ML for a semester in 6 hours
• learnt about supervised/unsupervised learning. still very confused. If I'd have more time maybe I'd understand but I don't think I'm going to get any futher in a little more than a week
• apparently you're not allowed to use the organization's gpu for cryptomining(which implies someone did it):doge-wx:
• I slept at 1am!(crazy how that's considered a good day)
day 43
• took a walk. It was actually really nice and I'm going to try to do that everyday
• learnt about ai search. It's pretty cool how you can have a model up and running by just using a library and 50 lines of code
• productivity 2/5. constantly distracted by movies/youtube/konkrio/mancala/music/whatever else I looked up today
• going to birthday party yay
• kind of annoyed that I need to upload photos for scrappy to count my post. I'll just be the daily meme guy from now on ig:shrug:
day 42
• objects in motion stay in motion, whereas objects in rest stay in rest...
• I realize that the harder I work, the harder decompression rebounds. Last night I read novels till 6 and spent the whole day gaming and watching movies. work is tiring but pleasure is hollow too
• how in the world have I gotten myself into 4 competitions...
• been journaling a lot lately. I'm becoming really philosophical
day 41
• absolutly slayed my presentation:thumbup:
• HAHA no school on wed or friday
• slept between 2 and 3. at least the last of my stress factor is gone so I should be able to sleep very well in the next few weeks
• my unreliable teacher/advisor is sick again... missing my appointment, the appointment with the group for pws AND our presentation. And apparently he already knows today that he's scik until friday so now I have to wait another 2 weeks to talk with him :sad_pepe:
• i have no interesting image of my life so here's another meme🍰
day 40
• I hate school
• listened to a webinar about ai and it's so confusing... half of it was advertisement
• slept at 1:30am, which is improvement ig
day 39
• bought a bunch of snacks to reward myself
• did pretty much nothing except some 800 problems on codeforces. I feel like this one meme
• it's just been exams and I have 2 tests and a presentation deadline tmr. I swear my school is trying to end me:angrycry:
day 38
• I think my sleep schedule may be permanently messed up. If I'm stressed I sleep late, then I become sleep deprived, being sleep deprived makes me emotionally unstable and I become even more stressed, thus continuing the every going cycle of destruction
• did well at the ioi today! At the one hour and 45 min mark I had only 8 points and even the teacher came to help:heavysob:. But once I got the structure set up, I speedrunned (speedran?) the tasks and got like 160 points in 40 min because it was super easy once you have the structure. 10/10 chaotic experience, would (nt) recommend
day 37
• got a 4 hr lecture on matrices and differential equations blah blah blah I understood NOTHING and other people were already asking these deep ahh questions some people are just built differently ig. it was SO BAD
• revisited poptropica and played konkrio
• stayed up until 3 am... I really need to fix my sleep schedule🔥
day 36
• missed a day😔
• finally submitted my thesis yesterday. mailed my teacher about the uneven workload etc
• asked about my poster for magazine just to hear at the last minute that it's never been rereviewed and my design won't be included😠
• got 10 for math... and bad grades for pretty much everything else
• went to economics olympiad
• help I feel like my life is going downhill😭
• my github is so dead I need to start coding again but I just don't have the time
day 34
• discussed thesis with group and divided tasks for the last details
• need to read the Golden Egg for english
• olympiad tmr, kinda nervous
• didn't do much
• journaled, slept 11 hours:tw_white_check_mark:
day 33
• got physics and econ grades back. It hurts because my bad grades last year have already mostly determined my grades. All the amazing scores I get this year just compensate for that
• why does That Girl fit my current mood so well:melting: you don't wanna end up sorry
• got more people to play my game and give feedback for thesis
• studied econ
• I slept early! and journaled! :tw_white_check_mark:
• drew some pikachu
day 32
• slept at 2am instead of 4!! improvement
• meme because I have a really busy week coming up and I'm lowkey about to crash out. gotta stay positive to myself
• not a very productive day. gamed a lot, did a big of coding and logistics
• yay got another time costly interview
day 31
• goodbye January, a month of pain and darkness
• started practicing cp from intro problems on cses because my skills absolutely suck(just look at the redundant code below)😭
• learnt about personal finances and is now worried about my future
• accidently played chess to 4 am:instructions-for-agent-oops-there-has-been-a-mistake-with-your-instructions-this-is-not-part-of-the:
Stuff I did in January❌
• college apps
• exams
• start my new game(eh half an hour is still work)
Stuff I will do in February:tw_white_check_mark:
• limit screen use before bed to 1 device(because no screen isn't gonna work)
• journal daily
• hopefully get further in competitions
• celebrate my vacation and not only study
• survive a group trip
day 30
• I got my apple pencil!!
• grinded econ
• did an arcane art study
day 29
• watched legally blonde and cruella until 4 am
• had a headache for the rest of the day
• went to help the school's open day, stayed for way too long and had too much sugar. I'm so high(on sugar)
• going to slovakia in a few weeks! I'm kind of nervous bc it's with people idk though
day 28
• collapsing from tests but at least it's all over
• I have to work on my game secretly bc my mom thinks I'm wasting time:heavysob:
• It's 8pm but I think I'll go to bed
• remembered about poptropica, let's see how much childhood memory I can catch up on:thinking_face:
• finished pixel, going to binge another movie tmr
day 27
• 2 more subjects to go... I'm so ready to give up:sleep-wx:
• I wanted to make a new game, roulette gave me a 2d isometric exploration digital game so instead of studying I wrote 700 words of lore and no code. 👀basically you're from the west coast, after exploring you finally come across to the east side and suddenly you discover a new continent in the sky(see concept art). upon rising up you discover the last human beings protecting this world from the Fading
• watching pixel, can't wait to watch horror movie together w my friends on thursday:walter-white:
• da bomb
day 26
• I gotta start remembering to post
• 5 tests down, 3 to go
• managed to slap this poster together in 2 hours. I might have been better off studying but then again... I want my project to be on there. I'm proud of what I made as a first timer but I don't really like it. probably also bc I had a reference in mind that was 1000 times better than this one
• lots of ups and downs last week. presentations + interview + test + competitions + personal stuff. THE GRIND CONTINUES
• it's cold AF :sad_pepe:
day 23
• wrote my first java code during matching & selection for college. If they start asking me to code java during the test I'm cooked😭
• I slept 11 hours and still got a headache, what is wrong with you body
• I started drawing again:doge-wx:
• did some econ and math
• day 4 of wikipedia speedrun🔥
day 20
• I did NOT need to get 9 and a half hours of beauty sleep on the night before an exam😭
• anyway tired already and 2 tests tmr, finger crossed I'm praying for myself🤞
• also magazine got approved for half a page yay
• photo: crude aluin crystals I made
day 19
• survived a presentation and an interview😤
• my github streak is dying but I don't have time to code bc of stupid exams😭 and after exams I need to do competition😭 senior year is not ok
• submitted escape room for magazine, let's see how much space I can get, I'm hoping for half:eyebrow:
• did a really fun spatial dimensions puzzle in physics today instead of actually prepping for the test tmr at least we were the only ones who finished it lol
day 12
I slept 4 hours :whoa: and no it's because my brain decided watching youtube until 3 was more important than sleeping. I need to fix my sleep ASAP
• sent grades for registration uni
• mailed 3 people
• did 1 ch math
• my apple pencil arrived! to my friend in the us
• got an interview for princeton. I know I probably should be grateful but the interviewer asked to meet next week when I literally have exams every single day and also to meet offline. 10/10 I do not want to go
• I did a new layout for my website. it still ugly tho
day 3
• nlt test went pretty bad(why did my math teacher ever think 2 math tests in the same week is a good idea)
• did more math
• slept pretty well
• exercised!
• another art study(guess who's the ref??)
Week 1
• Spent the whole winter break on nothing but essays
• thesis is coming along well, we switch our topic to a more qualitative one and got a deadline extension till after exams
• I'm on milkyway review so taking up review work yay
• studying for exams. currently I did 1 ch math and 2ch physics. gotta lock in!!
• did one art drawing
• won 5 bucks from the lottery(lost 10 in the process)
day 49
• how many days have I forgotten about updating this??:sweatdrop:
• succesfully finished my 50 day art challenge!! I'm very proud of myself!
• I finished all my physical to-do goals, shipped my game(stellar ship!), finished the website, also drew everyday
• my sleep and excercise is still messed up though
• what do I do after this? What's my new year resolution? i've been doing college apps for the entirety of christmas break and I'm losing my mind. I just need one school to accept me and end this nightmare:cryign:
day 46
• finished 3 essays today I'm so proud
• headache and sick
• scrolling on reddit
• bug for my game only on export
day 45:50days:
• can't update my original msg 😞 but bascially I finished owrking on my website and also managed to code for 40 days(I gave up today on milkyway. I think I deserve a break after 40 days.)
• V loafed on me!!! and gave me a side eye too
• also made a mini terrarium at my friends
Day 44 shipped my milky way project. Bet was broken and wouldn’t count my art hours. Wrote essays. Yep. Cats fighting a lot
day 43 merry Christmas 🎁 🎄!! On my ipad now so can’t next-line. Dreadful. Anyhow I’ve done Milky Way and I added an Easter egg room which was one of the old ones we decided to abandon as if was too easy. I’m surprised that I still have the streak… it’s been 43 days and tbh I kinda want to end😭 it’s motivational but I don’t want to do this all the way until February. Also today marks the beginning of my cat sitting journey(again)! On the left is v, named for the white stripe shaped like a v on the his back(it’s more like a u) and on the right is his sister Yasmeen(super sweet) more on my website. Anyways merry Second day of Christmas!!
day 41 + 42
• NOOOOO I MISSED A DAY😭 I FORGOT NOOOOOOOOO
• I don't really remember what I did but I submitted stanford and worked on my website, added a cat page for #C026LDN0ADB|
• literally at my neighbors rn having dinner and I just pulled out my laptop to type this in case and submit milky it's too late again #thegrindneverstops
day 40:50days:
good night world my head is so full it's about to burst
• wrote 2 essays. tbh I don't think i'll have any time for school work anymore:heavysob:
• improved my personal website, it's actually looking really professional now
• got a really cute bear in a cup as a early christmas gift from my neighbors(they're spending christmas in italy)
day 39:50days:
• christmas party w friends. my mental supporttttt🙏
• I submitted an artlog and worked on essays
day 38:50days::
• no slackbot, I hate puns
• went to a ukraine workshop today w friends! learnt a lot about the culture. I made these nice cubes(I forgot the name) they hang on the door so people touch them and get good luck. I accidently stepped on it and it broke tho :smiling_face_with_tear:
• also decorated some cookies, although they didn't appreciate the journey either(guess what the pink one is supposed to be)
• stanford essays topics are weird
day 37:50days::
• happy holidays! I had a hamburger grilling workshop at school today, although the timeable was so confusing and I didn't know where I should be. every teacher gave me another answer and in the end I just joined my friends and made christmas wreaths:tw_christmas_tree:
• also the boys at the oliebol stall literally didn't care about selling anything:cryin: they kept saying 'just take it, just take it!'
• apparently eco olympiade is become a girls vs boys thing. people keep saying I have to beat David
• new sat was lower than my previous score. I'm so cooked for college:fireball:
day 36:50days::
• I swear my brain processes english worse and worse by the day
• had a debate and one guy was looking at me so confused like I spoke another language so I laughed, hopefully won't cost me too many points
• made animated GrAsS:grass:(go touch grass yall)day 35:
• slept till 12 hours and had 4 dreams
• gamed and coded. First time trying a fsm and it worked
day 34:50days::
• uploaded the videos we made and set up some localization. OGV compresses the videos so bad our faces are literally mosaic😭
• I'm pretty sure I'm sick. the thermometer measured 41,5 degrees😭(it's 26,3 actually, at that point I'd be in the iCU)
• randomly got hackclub postcards and stickers, I really expected them to never come
• I forgot but also 30 day streak on hacktime!
• pps I somehow got thru the school round and am in the semi finals of economics olympiad?? I feel like the only reason this goes so fast is because no one wants to participate😭
day 33:
• github could not have caused me more trouble today. Tried fixing a submodule, ended up getting doubles, couldn't exit rebase and after an hour asking chatgpt for help I was in masters instead of main. At least it seems to be solved. for now
• finally slapped a bg onto my game. All my photos here are literally milkyway posts idk why I do this
• heard some pretty intense news today. also came in a mini accident with a car
DAY 33 (2025-12-14):
• No dev work for now, just recharging via long nap earlier afternoon and some household errands
• Did a fresh start for #C07H1R2PW9W|'s YouTrack Cloud instance
• Also filed a proposal at #C09D1E22CF5| repo for verified alum status: github.com/hackclub/auth/issues/107
day 31
today's one of those days where I suddenly become aware of all my tasks and become very stressed. I've done nothing since I woke up
vented to a friend about the uneven task distribution. now I'm all happy, abt to handle this like a pro👍
looking forward to all the hangouts in the christmas vacay :tw_christmas_tree::tw_christmas_tree::tw_christmas_tree: secret santa yay!:santa-hat:(also why is it named secret santa battle:heavysob:)
day 30:50days:
• skipped school as I was too tired
• wasn't productive anyways, didn't know what to do
• added some sfx for milkyway
day 29:50days:
• so, so tired from micromanaging everyone. tired of everyone making up excuses.
• long day school tmr, abt to crash out
• I'm so close to finishing the game!! Also 50 hours for milkyway so I should get my steam license soon :scheme:
• if you like science and puzzle games pls test our game zoeyao.itch.io/escape-room
• I'm also expecting my apple pencil
• really obsessed with cookie run kingdom:heavysob: Shadow milk cookie is such a bae:yay-mimi:day 28:
• 4 hours milkyway. I've been really pushing myself to the edge these days, also with thesis and since that one group member never does anything... My friends in other groups experience it too, although it's even worse there... I've already met my 80 hour requirement(by the time we finish it'll probably go up to around 100) , and the other 2 people have around 60-70, and the last one has 40~ max. I don't like it but yeah, how do you force someone to do their task?
• didn't see anything in the petri dish so I'm not very sure if the seed crystal is growing properly
• our meade is also doing well!🍯
day 27:50days::
• the crystals are so pretty! can't wait to see the alum crystal tomorrow:heartarrow-blue:
• I finished escape room 1... and I'm kind of sad. I feel relieved that it's 'over', but at the same time as if I've abandoned a part of me...:yay-mimi:
• ALMOST 100 HOURS LET'S GO! I joined sometime around 3 months ago so that would be I coded around 1 hr a day(def not the case, but it makes me happy to think this)
• long day at school tmr(8:30-5pm) :P
day 26:50days:
• made a supersaturated solution for growing alum and copper sulphate crystals today, the copper had a really pretty deep blue color but I couldn't get the beauty on camera 😕
• Obsessed with Moon in one's cup's nostalgic feeling. That one rising arpeggios made me think of another song(golden hour) and my brain is still tingling very much
• milkyway
Day 25 Almost forgot to post. Thank god I can use slack on my iPad again, though the only downside is that I have no enter key… I redid room 3 today and that’ll be the last of the major coding(fr this time). I currently have 29 hours so 50 hours will really be doable! Also I got shadow milk cookie today ! Now I have all the beasts in crk
day 24:50days:
• so... when did I ever stop my streak for scrappy??
• woke up at 5 am for sat. there was 1 math question I didn't know the answer to since I didn't know what altitude meant but chatgpt said I guessed right? Overheard a convo about Korean sat, I searched it up and it's 8 hours long... That's insane bruh. Suddenly I'm very grateful for not living in Asia...:heavysob:
• 2 hours milky and a lot of thesis work. my writing is terrible but at least I'm finally seeing hope in sight(my teammates are finally finishing their tasks)
• gotta sleep:thumbs-up:
• ps I made a gambling machine /j
day 23:50days:
• got localization going for milkyway
• spent 4 hours filtering meade. surprisingly it hasn't gotten moldy and I can really smell the alcohol! We'll be filtering it again next week and in 6 months we should have alcohol to celebrate graduation:partying_face:
• I'll be in the lab 3 days next week:skulk:
• wish me luck for sat:smiling_face_with_tear:
day 22:50days:
• not a lot happened
• my teammates aren't fulfilling our division of tasks and it's causing me a lot of stress because I have to wait for them to finished their taksks which should've been finished 2 weeks ago
• milkyway
day 21:50days:
• I finished escape room!(for now...) Looking forward to beta-testing and all the bug reports I'll receive:star-struck:
• working so hard these past 2 days I'm scaring myself👁👄👁
• had a 3 hour physics experiment test thingy. Technically I should've received the same amount of radiation as an airplane flight🍌
• gods bless me on my sat
day 21
• slept 4 hours oopsie💤
• grinded so hard I'm going to wake up with a productivity debt tmr
• 4 hours Milky Way and I'm almost finished with the game!:yay-mimi:
• also i began playing cookie run kingdom... shouldn't be doing that w all my deadlines
• yep. good night!
day 20
not my best day... got into a fight with my parents again over apps.
• did milkyway
• did draw
day 19
• sometimes it's hard not compare yourself to other people but yeah don't do that
• am stressed out. to-do TODAY:
◦ vaccine
◦ homework
◦ 1 hour milkyway
◦ submit uc
• I blame my emotional behavior on that fact I didn't sleep on time yesterday. I'll be alr:cheer-cat:
• tried to use tampermonkey for the first time. feeling like an absolute noob:heavysob: I swear I change between 'oh I can code and use github and godotI'm so smart' to 'absolute TECH noob who can't use anything except github and godot' way too often
• ended up working on uc the whole night... it'll be worth it:thumbs-up:
day 18:50days:
• offically abt to cry cause I just realized I did not have to wait until 12 pm for milkyway huddle :cryin::cryin::cryin:
• grinded 3 hours on milkyway. implementing drag+drop system
• excercised
• might go draw to vent
day 17:50days:
• you ever get that desperate feeling when you're waiting for art from an friend...
• 2 hours for milky way. yuh grinding
• I have like a thousand deadlines coming around and after christmas am I doomed for the holidays this year
• all average of 8s for exams! (we ignore dutch bc that's not a real language obviously)
• whoa 40 likes for my art is this what fame feels like:cryin:
day 16:50days:
• another 2 hours on milky way. development in pause as I'm waiting on art
• I've got 2 of my friends to draw every day with me!! We're supporting each other so much :3
• 9,9 for math. Why not a 10:cryin:
• not much to it. I've been doing the same things every day basically. But this is how you get better!💪
day 15 :50days:
• thank god slack is up again. never want to use that terrible scrapbook again.
• sleeping very much on time(9hours) but keep having difficulty falling asleep. I'm quite stressed out about upcoming college deadlines and SAT. I really don't know how to write about myself...
• worked A LOT on escape room! today I finished room 2. 10 day milkyway streak :doge-wx:
• been drawing everyday too! I'm proud of myself for grinding so hard :)
day 12:50days:
• got a headache from showering yesterday and also biking in the freezing wind today
• It snowed!!
• worked 8 hours at anime con again. was worried my body wouldn't recover since I ended up staying very late with the headache yesterday, but I woke up with no muscle soreness whatsoever. teenage recovery speed is no joke lol. feeling rich with $275
• finally fixed that bug I've been working forever on in milkyway 😁
• how do I keep posting while slack is down?
day 11:50days:
• worked 9 hours at anime con and my legs hurt SO MUCH TOT
• kpop demon hunter by far the most popular series to be cosplayed. body count: 7 rumi, 6 zoe, 3 mira, the whole band and the whole freaking saja boys. honorable mention: a Cone and 4 kinichs. till tomorrow!
• managed to keep my milkyway streak while having a headache. pretty pissed about raycast system and me not understanding it
Day 10:50days:
• slayed my english presentation
• got 2 8,9s for physics and economy. Can't say I'm very happy but then again it's not exactly a bad grade either... But why not a 9:cryin:
• ray cast system being a dummy and not working. Look if it doesn't work, I can always just hard-code it...
• my throat hurts but I gotta work tomorrow. Pls pls let me be not sick
